Sunday, October 5, 2014

TRUST & HEARTACHE

TRUST comes with this one word a lot of heartache.
I can only assure you that i am a trustworthy person, believing on my words is upto you. Then again i am giving it you on writing......!!
Okay so since i declared myself a trustworthy person,  i want you to trust me when i say DON"T trust anyone... Uhm Yeah "Easier said than Done" 

I have been telling to myself for atleast 10 years now, don't trust anyone.  Easier said than Done isn't it, cause i never followed. 

You should at-least know a few things about me to understand what i am trying to tell you.
I am a born Hindu and still a Hindu, who went to disciplined Christian school, i have uncountable number of Muslim friends and i'm from Sri Lanka.  I know to respect people and their religions.
My parents never forced me Hinduism nor any religion all they and my school taught me is to be a good human being. So i have all the traces an ordinary human would have, i have soft heart that falls in love with people only seeing their good instincts and hence i tend  start caring for them, help them when there in need going out of my league and without me realizing i start trusting them. As i always keep saying myself "DON'T trust anyone" and i only realize that i trusted someone when they hurt me intentionally. Well yes this had happened to me quiet a number of times and all of them who hurt me were my dear dear friends who meant everything to me.. Well that was what i was telling to myself and my dear dear friends that they mean so much to me than anyone else. But things had changed now cause people i grow up with learning how to trust started betraying me.
Which hurts as much as  your boyfriend dumping you for no reason... I guess. !!

If you had asked me then, whom do you trust most, i might have mentioned a few friends names but now if ask me that question i would say "Shobija" yeah thats me.  I have learnt it the harder way and experiences count.

With my experience in getting heart broken a number of times i'm sure i have learnt a thing or two. I would keep teltwing again and again to not trust anyone, and i still would never take my advice like i'm now even though i learnt it the harder way.

I'm sure betrayal hurts everyone and yes it does for me too. When someone break my trust i cry my eyes out for someone who isn't worthy of the water fall of falling from my eyes. And then come my trust issues my heart is so fragile that i have no room to trust anyone while i am losing faith on friendship. But then with the all minor and major heartache precisely only 2 out of 10 people i valued had broken my heart. So i then i realized why should i not trust the remaining 8 people because of 2 and why should i make them feel hurt like i am now.

No matter what people are gonna hurt you. 
So with my experience i can use this most told quote " If you're expecting the world to be fair with you because you are fair, you're fooling yourself. That's like expecting the lion not to eat you because you didn't eat him."   
Only way to save heartache is
1. Expect less
2. Don't stop loving others, cause if 2 broke your heart 8 can fix it.
3. Life is experience and heartache now and then when growing up teach you to depend more on you than anyone else.
4. Trust is essential and however much you deny it, there can be no true
love without trust. 
5. You always need friend to get over the shit another friend put you through.
                                                                                                                                      -xoxo Shobija